i'm not nearly as in control as i seem

struggling with the illusion of control

from the outside, it probably looks like i have it all together. i’ve been told before, usually in casual compliments, that i come off as calm, collected, and unflappable. you know the type—poised under pressure, organized, always with a plan. but what people don’t know is that underneath the surface of my "togetherness," there’s often a current of chao…