Mate, when I saw this post headline I was like, nah let me get in there and prove this person wrong, that you don't have clarity yet, buuut... Well the lines did hit home. Hard. But my game is to loose my personallity cause only then you can truly become human. It's the idea of "me" "myself", "this is what I am", "this would be what I think about this particular social situation", "I would/wouldn't do this" all this, is plain crap that we are..... tricking? ourselves into. I wish I had a better way to express this. Seriously man it's perfect when- a human just gotta worry about what to have for dinner, if we are gonna have it at all that is. I want that.
this is worded so accurately; how we are all desperate to be worth-knowing. I constantly look for ways to impress people, that way i could love myself a little bit more each day. But i don't think it matters what they think because at the end of the day, only we know who we truly are :)) We should never apologize or feel bad for that.
Been there. It takes a pain staking amount of quietness and then action towards doing things that you can be proud of. Like your writing! So wonderful.
Its like you took the words right out of my head. I’ve always thought of myself as a very self-sufficient person but i’m going through some thing in my first ever relationship in life rn and it’s brought out stuff the extreme anxiety and overthinking and the defence mechanism where i find it hard to open up, stuff that i never even realised was possible to someday be happening to me and its all left me so so confused about who i really am and how does my mind even operate.
This was me and i still find myself in this constant toxic mentality, but what has helping me throughout the wat is to just shift it, to affirm im good enough, to learn how to love me, and to be admired at anything that i do or think. When you start admiring yourself first you shift the energy making the others to admire. Well, i guess this is just one of my many philosophies in life. I hope you find peace within you girl. 🤍
Another banger from you felt deep in my soul. I realized a few years ago I wasn't always like this. Gives me hope I can revert back to some earlier form of myself! Can't say I can pinpoint when it started either, but I know it wasn't always this bad. Hoping the same for you! But anyway, lovely piece, truly.
you're an amazing writer. i related to so much of what's in this
Mate, when I saw this post headline I was like, nah let me get in there and prove this person wrong, that you don't have clarity yet, buuut... Well the lines did hit home. Hard. But my game is to loose my personallity cause only then you can truly become human. It's the idea of "me" "myself", "this is what I am", "this would be what I think about this particular social situation", "I would/wouldn't do this" all this, is plain crap that we are..... tricking? ourselves into. I wish I had a better way to express this. Seriously man it's perfect when- a human just gotta worry about what to have for dinner, if we are gonna have it at all that is. I want that.
this is worded so accurately; how we are all desperate to be worth-knowing. I constantly look for ways to impress people, that way i could love myself a little bit more each day. But i don't think it matters what they think because at the end of the day, only we know who we truly are :)) We should never apologize or feel bad for that.
Been there. It takes a pain staking amount of quietness and then action towards doing things that you can be proud of. Like your writing! So wonderful.
Its like you took the words right out of my head. I’ve always thought of myself as a very self-sufficient person but i’m going through some thing in my first ever relationship in life rn and it’s brought out stuff the extreme anxiety and overthinking and the defence mechanism where i find it hard to open up, stuff that i never even realised was possible to someday be happening to me and its all left me so so confused about who i really am and how does my mind even operate.
I've been where you are. I think it all comes down to change "i hate how much it matters to me" to "i love how much I matter to me" 🤍
Wow, what you wrote really hit home
Damn, you have penned it so beautifully 🌻😭
This was me and i still find myself in this constant toxic mentality, but what has helping me throughout the wat is to just shift it, to affirm im good enough, to learn how to love me, and to be admired at anything that i do or think. When you start admiring yourself first you shift the energy making the others to admire. Well, i guess this is just one of my many philosophies in life. I hope you find peace within you girl. 🤍
Another banger from you felt deep in my soul. I realized a few years ago I wasn't always like this. Gives me hope I can revert back to some earlier form of myself! Can't say I can pinpoint when it started either, but I know it wasn't always this bad. Hoping the same for you! But anyway, lovely piece, truly.
“(…)the constant reassurance that i exist in a way that matters to someone else.” yes.
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